So my creative writing class also has the policy of writing little snippets of whatever for at least like 20 minutes five days a week. Just gonna share what I've written. Hooray for writing all the time!
9/22
The netting on the tea bag is so fine it disappears in the tea-color water. I worry that fannings have made their escape through heat tears or stem punctures, but when the tea bag sways they sway with it. This is my second time brewing this bag. It's not that I'm thrifty or lazy or even grateful for the tea's flavor-life. It's just fun to watch the leaves breathe and curl, flutter in their little cage, lilt across each other. When they sink and give up, I know it's time to relieve them of their service and toss them out. I know when to let the useless sleep. They want to be working as much as I do.
I stop writing and bounce the bag.
I start writing again, tugging the string and lifting the bag out of the water with my free hand. It spins around and slouches like a marionette. When I drop the bag back in, not ready to remove it, it eases itself into the hot water, floating at first, and then slipping away before it presses up against the bottom. The boiling water is still hot, and the steam licks my palm as I hover it over the lip of the cup.
And now it's time. The netting holds some of the water for a moment as it suspends in the air, and then it releases it all.
9/24
My grandfather had a Buick Park Avenue phase for about thirty years. I was born in the middle of it, his third reincarnation, as he called it, for he loved referencing time with his sedan armada. Somewhere around the time of this model, a champagne 1991 with a leather faux hatchback, we were driving into town, like the big city Minneapolis was supposed to be. The next car he would buy would be the one I drive now, but that hadn't happened yet.
My grandfather was a two-foot driver, one on the gas pedal, the other slowly eroding the brakes. This is how he drove; it was like a washing machine, and it knotted my insides up too. I would puke, but that hadn't happened yet.
And my grandfather still smoked, his breath and teeth pushing bits of tar and ash when he spoke loudly, because he believed a World War Two veteran was too exalted for a hearing aid. This smell, incubated and recycled by the rolled-up windows, sent my stomach over the edge.
I had lied down in the back seat on the blue leather, and so when I projectile-vomited it all rained back down on me.
Some bits of tomato and rice soup still clung to the tan felt ceiling, which had speckles of cigarette ash well patterned in it.
After I had erupted, my grandfather pulled over on the side of the road. I had cupped my hands over my mouth to prevent further spewage, and yet my hands had reeked of sunfish slime from fishing earlier that day, and made me more nauseous.
He sprayed some windex over the seat and on my hands, scrubbing the vomit lodged in between my fingers. That damn car always smelled of windex, if not cigarette smoke, and sometimes it smelled of baked leather. When the vomit was all cleaned up, the hot leather scent crinkled through the seams in the seat.
I think my grandfather stopped smoking after that because none of the Buicks afterwards had had that scent. But that hadn't happened yet.
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
Friday, September 20, 2013
Something old, something new...
Something that's very obviously not poetry.
I don't think I've been very direct about the... er.... direction of this blog, so I'm going to say this outright: I'm taking a fiction course, and I will be writing fiction intensively for the next three months. No poetry. I've honestly been drifting towards fiction in the past year or so, probably since NaNoWriMo, and while I still very much enjoy poetry, there are paths in fiction that I want to explore more thoroughly, and I have tons ideas for short fiction pieces/ longer fiction pieces. Is that to say that I won't be posting any poetry in the near future? No, but just don't expect it.
So now on to something more relevant to the title.
Several years ago, I wrote a poem based on my very first memory in honor of some birthday. I think it was my 19th? Whatever. I wrote a poem. It's the poem on my most popular post (woooo!), but for those of you unwilling or unable to click on a link, here's just a copy of it:
First Memory
Verdant shuffle, fresh from sleep.
Day unplanned save planned caprice,
Free from obligations to keep,
Time obliging only to creep,
Not too old for inner peace,
Every quandary tends to cease
At inception. None are deep.
I round the corner, put my fist
On a wall of mirrors, every shade
Reflected as to not resist
My acknowledging them in list.
But soon was a connection made
Between myself, and one thought stayed:
“This is me. I exist.”
I obviously wasn't thinking in such flowery terms, but this was definitely how it went down.
And now for something newer.
Tuesday I had my first in-class exercise for my Creative Writing Senior Seminar (wtf how did I get so old, anyway?) and so we were given a prompt pertaining to an early memory and then wrote in our notebooks for about 15 minutes. I'm really digging the whole idea of writing more physically in a notebook rather than in a Word Doc, but then again I've always preferred it that way. And so here is my piece in all its 15-minute glory.
I don't know why, but I remember it was a Tuesday morning. My room was at the end of the hall, and the carpet was so green it resembled turf. I would always play on that carpet because it seemed more real.
I wasn't very old ,but I knew the concept of opening a door, twisting my wrist around a knob I barely could reach. My fingers must had been previously in my mouth, because they were slippery and made my grip weak and awkward.
My little wispy curls bounced as I waddled out of my room. This was before my hair was ever cut, so the strands must have been there from the time I was born. My hair curled up at will on the ends, changing their size and place whenever I slept. And I passed my parents' room and Lala's room, the room I would graduate to when I became a big girl and had no need for the nursery.
I passed the brown and white sofa set in the living room. They looked like cows or horses, and I would straddle their armrests and neigh or moo for them. I would take off their cushions and pretend they were pelts or hides to make a fort. The cushions were stiff, and the naugahyde was prickly, but I had never seen a cow or a horse in real life, so I figured that was what they felt like.
And then there were mirrors. Some were bigger than me, all cast in frames and different shapes and sizes. Every time my mother went to Colombia she would come back with one or five. They were spaced unevenly along the wall, but I knew my mother must have had some method to it that I didn't understand yet.
I would look at the dust gathering in the crevices of the frames, pretend the mirrors were talking to each other, imagining what they would say. I never looked at the mirrors themselves because their frames were more alluring. Besides, many of them were too high for me to look at at eye level.
But one of them today was. It must have been the new one. My mother had just come back from Colombia. She would go there to see where she had come from what she was, she would later tell me. And there I say myself for the very first time in the mirror. This must be what I looked like, what I looked like to others.
I don't think I've been very direct about the... er.... direction of this blog, so I'm going to say this outright: I'm taking a fiction course, and I will be writing fiction intensively for the next three months. No poetry. I've honestly been drifting towards fiction in the past year or so, probably since NaNoWriMo, and while I still very much enjoy poetry, there are paths in fiction that I want to explore more thoroughly, and I have tons ideas for short fiction pieces/ longer fiction pieces. Is that to say that I won't be posting any poetry in the near future? No, but just don't expect it.
So now on to something more relevant to the title.
Several years ago, I wrote a poem based on my very first memory in honor of some birthday. I think it was my 19th? Whatever. I wrote a poem. It's the poem on my most popular post (woooo!), but for those of you unwilling or unable to click on a link, here's just a copy of it:
First Memory
Verdant shuffle, fresh from sleep.
Day unplanned save planned caprice,
Free from obligations to keep,
Time obliging only to creep,
Not too old for inner peace,
Every quandary tends to cease
At inception. None are deep.
I round the corner, put my fist
On a wall of mirrors, every shade
Reflected as to not resist
My acknowledging them in list.
But soon was a connection made
Between myself, and one thought stayed:
“This is me. I exist.”
I obviously wasn't thinking in such flowery terms, but this was definitely how it went down.
And now for something newer.
Tuesday I had my first in-class exercise for my Creative Writing Senior Seminar (wtf how did I get so old, anyway?) and so we were given a prompt pertaining to an early memory and then wrote in our notebooks for about 15 minutes. I'm really digging the whole idea of writing more physically in a notebook rather than in a Word Doc, but then again I've always preferred it that way. And so here is my piece in all its 15-minute glory.
I don't know why, but I remember it was a Tuesday morning. My room was at the end of the hall, and the carpet was so green it resembled turf. I would always play on that carpet because it seemed more real.
I wasn't very old ,but I knew the concept of opening a door, twisting my wrist around a knob I barely could reach. My fingers must had been previously in my mouth, because they were slippery and made my grip weak and awkward.
My little wispy curls bounced as I waddled out of my room. This was before my hair was ever cut, so the strands must have been there from the time I was born. My hair curled up at will on the ends, changing their size and place whenever I slept. And I passed my parents' room and Lala's room, the room I would graduate to when I became a big girl and had no need for the nursery.
I passed the brown and white sofa set in the living room. They looked like cows or horses, and I would straddle their armrests and neigh or moo for them. I would take off their cushions and pretend they were pelts or hides to make a fort. The cushions were stiff, and the naugahyde was prickly, but I had never seen a cow or a horse in real life, so I figured that was what they felt like.
And then there were mirrors. Some were bigger than me, all cast in frames and different shapes and sizes. Every time my mother went to Colombia she would come back with one or five. They were spaced unevenly along the wall, but I knew my mother must have had some method to it that I didn't understand yet.
I would look at the dust gathering in the crevices of the frames, pretend the mirrors were talking to each other, imagining what they would say. I never looked at the mirrors themselves because their frames were more alluring. Besides, many of them were too high for me to look at at eye level.
But one of them today was. It must have been the new one. My mother had just come back from Colombia. She would go there to see where she had come from what she was, she would later tell me. And there I say myself for the very first time in the mirror. This must be what I looked like, what I looked like to others.
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
I'M BAAAAAAACKKKKK
Sup there, readers. Sorry that I haven't been around for like six months, but I guess it's not that surprising anymore. I've had kind of a busy summer that is just coming to an end, and in about a week and a half I'll be going back to school. I didn't write much in the summer since I had just taken a very intensive creative fiction class and I decided that I was going to just intentionally not write for a while until I missed it. I kind of regret this, because now I'm just too lazy to start writing again, but I've been trying to easing myself back into it by transcribing two little snippits I wrote in the summer. I won't be posting them because I'm not crazy about them, but I will be posting a poem that I haven't even written yet. Here's a poem with no editing and with the time stamp beginning and end. I won't promise anything. It'll probably suck way more than the scenes that I refuse to post.
Start time: 13:36
I found a kernel under my car's hood.
I wondered if it had made the sounds
That came from it when I went kind of fast.
I should explain that it was some popcorn
That I had maybe eaten like a week
Ago when changing my car's oil again.
My stupid car. No wonder it runs bad.
The oil-saturated kernel reeked
And I pretended I had not seen it
As I put the hood down and walked away.
A kernel makes no problems if I don't
Acknowledge that it's there, is that correct?
End time: 13:42
.... I think I'm hopeless.
Start time: 13:36
I found a kernel under my car's hood.
I wondered if it had made the sounds
That came from it when I went kind of fast.
I should explain that it was some popcorn
That I had maybe eaten like a week
Ago when changing my car's oil again.
My stupid car. No wonder it runs bad.
The oil-saturated kernel reeked
And I pretended I had not seen it
As I put the hood down and walked away.
A kernel makes no problems if I don't
Acknowledge that it's there, is that correct?
End time: 13:42
.... I think I'm hopeless.
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